Wednesday, December 31, 2008

eight no more!

finally, the last day for the year... the last day for me to complete and finish all the unfinished business for 2008... still trying to do them, but as usual, laziness got over me, and i'll just sit by and see the day goes by... *great* anyway, received a call yesterday midnight, and was rather surprised to see you calling... it was rather late and you were still awake, looking through the memory we left behind... it was very sweet of you.. well, it has been so long since it happened... *silence*

anyway, for 2009, i would like to - have all the health in the world *eyes rolling* - gain muscles and be sexy and hot and super handsome - get good grades for my studies - have a stable life and relationship - have enough money to spend everyday, every second of my life *wink* - everyone i know to be healthy and happy all the time - have world peace and a world which is a better place to live in *amen* - be a pilot in the future! ~to be continued when remember~ anyway, for you, you, you and you there, i still care about you although i might not reply your sms that often k... you should know me... lazy arse... *grins*


living in the extraordinary

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

blogging is like, something that is a must whenever i get to come online for more than 15 mins...
anyway, i would like to say, I AM DAMN SCARED NOW!!!
my freaking A-level results will be out in like, less than a month, and then, i would be dead, yes, DEAD!!!!!!!!!!
damn it...
during the long holiday, 1 WHOLE FREAKING MONTH, i basically sleep and eat and play and novel, and NO STUDIES...
i am so dead....
2009 is coming...
i need to have a to-do list...
i need to improve on everything, and achieve my dream!!!

never ending winding

Saturday, December 27, 2008

it just goes of

its true, a year since the event, and a year since the words, the promises made... i'm sorry for the harm done, i'm sorry for the mistakes, for bringing bad memories... its not an easy thing to move on, not to live in the past, and as well to be brave enough to face the present and future and the person that used to be in your life in the past... i'm not denying the fact that i still misses you, but i know that there're nothing else that can be done... do have a merry Christmas and a better year ahead.. this year, Christmas was somehow special... it was a blast, danced like no one's business, and for the very first time, i was up on the stage right in front of the dj... it was HOT!!! well, i would as well like to dedicate part of the blog to Calvin, the 19 year old nurse.. *grins* lots of things happened happened lately, and i am still trying to accept the fact... 2008 was a long year... things happened... entered college, grandpa passed away, met someone new, saw people growing up, saw people changing,
waited and waiting

Friday, December 19, 2008

me self

now, as a man, i can proudly say that I AM OFFICIALLY 18!!!!
I can now officially drink and drive (although i could since a year ago, but too bad) and smoke (which i will never do)!!!!!!!!!!
its just that all YIPPEEE thing going on, but then yesterday, my birthday was celebrated...
believe it or not, on my 18th years here, i took 3 cakes...
first was from Kelvin, then from Det Media (the company i'm working for) and then another one at night from Kelvin and friends again...
well, i would like to thank all people out there, who wished me and all my friends out there!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

happy myself

yea... its my birthday today... and yeap, i am finally 18, and i am officially given the permission from the government to drink!!! haha... anyway, it was fun... i am 18!!
18 years of virgin

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

its like.... WAD DA?!

the nostalgic has just somehow caught me up and got me thinking abt the time i had in school... Christopher is now the new Chief Librarian, which i am glad that he is, as i know he's rather responsible, however, just didnt expect those people, to be the excos.. its like, HELLO, since when were they a librarian, and there are tonnes of people out there that deserves the post and responsibility more than that few people.. anyway, received a call from someone, regarding another someone... it just somehow surprises me... its not that i don trust the 2nd one, but i just want a definite answer from you, from your words.... its just sucky enough, and tomorrow is so called my big day.. great, right?
when and what?!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

missing yet wanting

days just somehow tends to get lesser as more deeply i am in love with you... when the time comes for me to really appreciate you, the things that you've done, then you would be preparing to go somewhere else... its not like i didnt appreciate you, or never appreciatted you, but i really need you around me most of the time, most of the days... you're already becoming a routine, a part of my daily life... yesterday night, it was a lil crazy to do some super late shopping, and crazy-food-grabbing in tesco, but trust me, it was fun, although u didnt really like it i think... i just want to have more things that i can re-call about you whenever you're not around... i want you to be the first thing, the first person, i think of whatever or whomever i met...
daily routine, a need, not a burden

Monday, December 15, 2008

regrets are only sorry

well, just noticed that i usually start blogging with WELL, or even have the WELL all over my blog... but, who cares... well, just read your blog... its your opportunity to be in Singapore and you should... nothing and no one should be in the way of you going back to the place that you like, you love, and you adore... i will be here, waiting for your return, while i wish, that you'll do the same for me next year... and i've just read another your blog as well... i know.. it has been a year since... i didnt forget a single thing that you've said to me... i don't know whether its still valid till these day or not, but i would definitely say that its a memorable one... the memories are permanent, and will never be taken away... it was me whom brought issues into the relationship, and i am sorry... i just cant say more enough of sorry to you, but i am really sorry, trully, madly, deeply... may your future be bright, of obstacles that will bring you experiences, and people that will help you whenever you need... you have my blessing all the time, anywhere and with whomever you're with... and for the now you, i do love you, and i really do... its not like i enjoy arguing with you or whatsoever, but then, its just the disagreement between us... you're great, great lover, great cook, great personality... but, i want you to be more realistic when there are golden opportunities that awaits you... i love you now, and i do..
why wait while you still can?

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

bumpy road

receive a news today... early in the morning... its just something that i've expected to hear but maybe just not so soon.. i didnt expect it to come so sudden... i knew that you like that place.. its the dream place that you would love to live in... more than anyone, more than me... i shouldn't be selfish so i should just let u go... i don't know whether i'll be able to make it to join you next year... i want to be there, fulfilling my dream, and reaching my goals in life... i am just worried about my future, and our future... I want you to be there but i will miss you definitely...
giving in is the only option

Thursday, December 4, 2008

how's it?

things happen in life whether you want it or not... i donno, it has been days since i last blogged, and believe it or not, lots happened... fell sick, doctor, medication, sick again, people leaving and all that... i'm just getting tired of it... somehow feels like giving up but do not know how.. i am sick of it... it just seems as though life is meaningless without that someone there, to support you, and to be with you... friends are great... i am not saying that friends are useless, but need that special someone to just ignite that fire in ur life... my little spark is not around now... i need you.. i want you... i miss you... i donno... lately, these few days, i kept thinking about things that might happen in the future after my A-levels... what will i be... what will i do... what will happen to the US... you might think that i don care, but i really do... i am worried that you wouldn't be around just like how you were... i miss you and i love you deeply, seriously...
what if it happens?

Saturday, November 29, 2008

congrats sis

just came back from sis's graduation ceremony... well, its her day today, after studying for all these years to be come a nurse.. but then, i am rather disappointed over what she said and done... its her big day, and maybe she expected something from her brother, her family... when i went to her after her ceremony was over, and she was with her friends... wanted to congratulate her, but then she scolded me for not buying her flowers and all that in front of all her friends.. i donno... its just that dissapointment i have.... you might expected more from me, but sorry... i am really having some financial crisis lately... i am just sorry... anyway, congrats sis for becoming a great nurse...
there's nothing i can do

Friday, November 28, 2008

left but remains

today seems to be a good day for an outing, a day out with friends and family...
just came back from grandpa's new house..
you've been gone for 21 days...
we still miss you very much, especially grandma...
there's just that pain in my heart whenever i see her crying...
not her, not mom, not anyone i know, not anyone in the world...
let there be tears of joy, and no tears of sorrow...
grandpa, hope that you're in a better place now..
a place where there'll be no pain, no loss, no disappointment...
what makes life fragile?

crazy fats

life is about sharing and not living all by yourself... just came back from dinner with ryan... we had steamboat + barbeque + dim sum... my God... it was so crazy and i vomitted twice and i am putting on so much weight that no one can imagine how fat i am now... haihz... =< i am fat!!!!
it has been 3 weeks since you're gone

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


mom is currently sitting beside me, going to read some stuff from some chinese book to me...
(i am a banana)
anyway, parents just argued just now...
great, right??
hate it when it happens...
its as though they got nothing else better to do...
i'll be going back to kl this saturday for work soon..
i'll miss penang for sure...
i'll miss my family...
life repeats

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

son or niece??

isn't it obvious that i am jealous?! hello... i am about to turn 18, and you haven't specially cooked any instant noodle or even any special meal other than the 3 basic meals of the day for me... and guess what, you cooked for my cousin?! its like HELLO!!! I AM YOUR SON/CHILDREN AND NOT THAT GIRL!!!! anyway, forget about it... my cousin sister came over and live with us for dono how long she want, and she is already getting on my nerves even though its her first 3 days of stay here... respect comes in 2 way, and when i respect you, i expect you to respect me in return... first of all, i am older than you are, so PLEASE FREAKINGLY SHOW SOME RESPECT!! when i tell you something i expect some proper response from you, and not showing your i-don-care expression to me... you'll regret it when i call you a bitch one day... trust me! i've been back in penang for days and guess what, i haven't went out with my friends yet... none... great ~.~


well, dreamt of grandpa again last night... we were at grandma's house, and somehow, the lift brought us up to the 8th floor, so we have to walked down the stairs back to the 3rd floor... then, grandpa told me, SORRY, GRANDPA IS TOO OLD D... i almost broke into tears when i heard that... grandpa, you're not old, you're still my grandpa no matter how old you are.... we still love you and we really do...
always missing you

Friday, November 21, 2008


well, did some silly and shameful stuff just now... was in the train, after exam, to work... at the Pasar Seni station, saw an old men, asking everyone, KELANA JAYA AR??? well, then since no body answered, so i tried to answer la (though i'm not that sure), by pointing to the opposite side... and guess what, my train was supposed to be the one to Kelana Jaya, and not the opposite one... i felt so bad... and even ppl in the train started staring at me... *shy* *@* haihz... sorry uncle... i'm really sorry... other than that, dreamt of grandpa again last night... i donno why, has been dreaming of him lately... didnt really dream about him at the first 7th day without him, but only exactly after that... dreamt that he woke up from death and then telling us that he's very thirsty or something like that... other than that, for the past few nights, has been dreaming of him of him leaving us as well... i just miss you... i wanted to tell mom about it but then i am afraid that it might just got her and grandma into some emo mode... we really miss you ah kong... you just left us in such a short time and so sudden... we're totally unprepared... i regretted not calling back and talked to you... i am sorry... Seems like it was yesterday When I saw your face You told me how proud you were But I walked away If only I knew What I know today I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you’ve done Forgive all your mistakes There’s nothing I wouldn’t do To hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you But I know you won’t be there I’m sorry for Blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself By hurting you Some days I feel broke inside But I won’t admit Sometimes I just wanna hide Cause it’s you I miss And it’s so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this Would you tell me I was wrong Would you help me understand Are you lookin’ down upon me Are you proud of who I am There’s nothing I wouldn’t do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back I’m sorry for Blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you since you’ve been away It’s dangerous It’s so out of line To try and turn back time I’m sorry forBlaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself By hurting you we really miss you...
never knew till you're gone

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


oh my GOD!!!! you slut!!! you asked someone to stroke your C*#k!!! eeeu....


Changy™ Bye Bye Moral! says: so ur 1990?
life was never easy and it will never be says: what makes u think i am not?
Changy™ Bye Bye Moral! says: nah u just look kinda young
guess what, this is just the sweetest thing i've ever heard today, other than I MISS YOU, of course... ahha... well, the rain somehow makes me a little moody now.. am sitting in the office, staring at the white pc, and supposed to be working, but.... ahhaa... they're all off... veron, christy, esther, fannie, CK, Sunny... all out of the country, and more or less, no one is going to look at me working... i love my life now (or maybe not?) anyway, who says that cursing is a bad thing?? cursing can be funny at times you know... so, *$#@
blogging my life

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


i am so darn furious now... i was asked to do one of the silliest thing i've ever done in my life, which is CALLING TO EVERYONE IN A TELEPHONE DIRECTORY =.= and guess what, i am freakingly hungry now, that it makes me ffffffffffffffffffffffffuriousssssssssssss..... anyway, grandpa, i still miss you... i've been having you in my dream for the past 3 nights... i don't know why... it is still somehow feels different when i think of penang... i used to have 2 grandpa and 2 grandma.. and now, the closest grandpa is gone, forever.. i still remember very well on how you looks like when i went back 2 saturdays ago... i miss you very much...
a song that will come to an end

Thursday, November 13, 2008

ah kong

ah kong, you will always be in our memory... we love you as always, and always will.. we miss you very much

Friday, November 7, 2008


falling out of time in order to get me back to on feet...
things just somehow feel like its out of order, and need lots of maintenance and repair...
the cost is high, and there is a price to pay for all of these...
but i am willing to..
because i want to...
cleansing takes time

Thursday, November 6, 2008


finally, done my economics just now... its a not-too-bad paper la.. however don really dare to judge and say how good i will score in it... in the mid-term, i thought that i did well, but instead, at the end of the day, when the paper comes back, i got a =.= instead haihz... the good thing for now is that i have two more papers to be taken, and then, yippee i will scream for this year... in the train just now, just randomly thought of something from some random movies... *i miss my family* @_@
the one you misses is the one you love

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

sweet cake

happy life, happy ending


just finished my 3rd day of exam... *whew* 3 more days to go till indepent for the year 2008... but in the process of going through the exam just now, almost killed myself twice thanks to myself... saw 'l' as 't' and 0.2 as 0.1 +.+ it was so crazy... thank God that i managed to see those silly mistakes and correct them in time...
close enough to get yourself killed

Monday, November 3, 2008

Young Enterprise

WTF man...
my school lost the YE competition??!!!
what the fuck man...
what are the people in my school doing??
" PCGHS’ RM5,444 profit margin was certainly good enough to beat St. Xavier’s Institution (SXI), Methodist Girls School and SMK Sacred Heart to second, third and fourth places respectively.
The best annual report achievement award went to SMK Dato’ Onn, followed by SMJK Chung Ling, SMJK Union and Penang Free School. For best product achievement, SMJK Phor Tay was the winner with SMK Convent Green Lane the first runner-up while SMK Batu Maung and SMK Datuk Haji Abdul Kadir took the third and fourth placing respectively.
At the YE sales fair in Queensbay Mall, SXI had the best overall stall while SMK Dato’ Onn was best in customer service. SMK Convent Green Lane was best in teamwork, SMJK Phor Tay best in promotions while SM Teknik Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra had the best decorated stall. "
what is wrong with the juniors??
how come lose??
and to PCGHS?!!!!
my God!!
SXI has been on the trophy for yearS...
and you guys just let that girl school beat all of you?!?!?!
Biz Edge was and IS a much better company than you guys!
Biz Edge Enterprise, 2007

HR Director, Biz Edge Enterprise


Pride year 2007


now i look like a vampire from the halloweem... my eyes are red due to my long hair... ~_~ anyway, my halloween turn out to be rather sucky.. just normal... was supposed to go to oblique with kenn and all, but was kinda have to give face to Connie (chihuahua) because its her last day around and have to go for her farewell in SHABU-SHABU and NEWAY... sorry Kenn for not going there although i said i would... i really wanted to go, but i couldnt make it... those people were forcing me (sort of) to go.. i am just sorry kenn... anyway, life was so called limitless, and endless, but lately i just feel as though life is coming to an end... good things are again, sort of leaving me, leaving my life... it feels hard to breath, sick to move... i am just falling apart, failing to keep me in one... mom and dad went to bangkok the other day, now still there, having lots of fun... and i think that my sis is now there joining the fun... i want bangkok... i want fun.. i want endless happy life...
something seems to be hidden and unavailable

Friday, October 31, 2008

moving and flying

Had lots of unnecessary arguments lately...
argued with someone, for random reasons, twice for two days...
anyway, had my 2nd paper today, and 4 more days to go till i'm free for this year...
exam was rather fine today..
quite easy..
quite fun...
i want to fly now..
flying without wings, with hands...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

tears of the rainbow

i am just tired...
let me be...
have you ever wondered why the colour of the rainbow only consist of 7 colours??
where is the black??
even after the 7 colours are combined together, you'll get a white...
how i wish that my life will be like a rainbow...
after going through all these, how i wish that i can get a clear blue sky decorated with colours of the rainbow...
7 colours with different happiness...
i do not want things to go down the drain...
i want things to be bright and wonderful...
i want to stop wasting my time...
bright and wonderful

putting it off

now that at least it is over, and well, i am just left out for now and ever... feeling rather off today... just blur on things to do, and are unsure of what decision to make... i want a life without tough decision.. @__@
ignoring me makes me feel better

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

flying all alone

its just amazing to know that someone had a blasted party, and you are just not invited... i know i am no one to say about inviting me there, and i don even deserve to even be on the list... well, at least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENN it was your birthday last weekend, and hopefully it was much better than the one you had last year (i'm definitely sure it is) anyway, moving on, college is getting a lil screwed up.. people that i used to know, have fun with, started running away from me, ignoring my presence.. my friend (whom i assumed is) is not my real friend.. lecturers are still the same, with their face looking at you as though no one in this world can get worst that you... i hate being here...i have my thoughts wandering everywhere throughout the day, with little bit of attention left in the class, in the lecture hall.. all i want is left me, my life, and myself... who else can i talk to when i am unhappy and who else can i trust with my secrets in life?? whom shall i joke with, that will have great fun with?? i feel so much strangered from this world.. i feel so far away from people i used to know... my shopping days are left only for myself, and no one else.. my closer friends are the one whom i found when i go to work.. i just do not know what is best for me... i am tired...
people walked in and out of your life, and left no footprint in mine

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Elwin Lee, the 18 years old guy

it has been more or less a year since we last met, and worst, since we last shoke hands and running around the school doing silly stuff... and today, its one of your birthday, 23/10/2009 = you being 18 years old... HAPPY BIRTHDAY my friend, the one who was as crazy as i was, ELWIN LEE

pushing me

being ordinary is being special.. i am special the way i am, so are u...
pushing the limit that has no ending
*specially dedicated to someone i just chatted with*

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

crazy people in crazy place

what the hell is wrong with this world?? i talked with a proper manner to u and u just f*cking scolded me... if i were to know what to fill up there, i wouldn't have to call you up again to ask you... do you think i enjoyed talking to you and listening to your sweet(NOT) voice?! if its not because of CUSTOMER-IS-ALWAYS-RIGHT policy, i would have just scolded you and just freakingly hung up.. i apologized for the things i said but you still kept on freakingly blaming me for it, ARE YOU INSANE??This is Malaysia, please speak proper MALAYSIAN LANGUAGE!! anyway, i had a very good day till i call you for the 1st and 2nd time!
being the customer is not being right

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

touch me not

you ain't gonna come here and mess with my life, you BITCH... first, don't accuse me of doing something that i've never done (or said)! then, i am your friend but i am not the one for you to get away with troubles or even just to keep ur status up high (you're just not that great either!) anyway, you are just a random someone so i will not let the things that you've done (or said!) ruin my day... you are just a hypocrit, bitch! today WAS a good day, and i will make sure it IS and WILL! quite a number of people pontenged class today la, maybe because of the up-coming chem test... i am just so random now and i am feeling a lil off~~
I am beautiful no matter what they say~

Monday, October 20, 2008

weird o

guessing is nothing but an assumption of what you think is true and right... why must some people just show off that they're better than you are? hello, its non of my business if you're the greatest of all... you don have to YESH!! and show ur effing face to everyone, lame! anyway, a big thank you, to yOOu, who reads my blog and catch up with the latest in my life...
watching me growing up

confusing physics

just finished my physics class, and its just so sucky... worst than anything i can imagine.. he gave us some random test and well, it was rather tough, for me, wei yee and some people(or maybe all the ppl in the class) its not actually tough la.. its just a lil confusing and well, i am not well prepared an not prepared for that test... i am not ready for it, and i'm not ready for everything... things are just getting worst day by day... and u know what, some random diploma students, lots of them, currently flooding the CITC and its damn noisy...(idiots) i hate everything!!
staring at me doing my work doesn't help

killing one to replace the other

well, after staying in kl for about a year, finally got to NEWAY karaoke last saturday.. it was ok ok only ler... as usual, i am not really into that kind of crazy singing thing so just sat there and watch them sing... *i'm still having my exam next week* sucky.. ~_~ moving on, i am bored of everything lately... things just got sort of slown down due to the exam nowadays... lesson conducted in class no longer feels like a lesson but its mmore to some random revision.. AND, class is starting to get bored...
putting you in my shoes will make things worst

Friday, October 17, 2008

mostly, everything nice

yippee.... got a phone call early in the morning from mom asking me why didnt i attend some of the GP class during september... ~_~ yea, i admit that i ponteng-ed some of the classes, but u know, sometimes GP is not about attending class but its more about knowing everything and just to gain more general knowledge... i rather gain that knowledge through practical and trainings rather than sitting in the class and watching slides and listening to lecturer talking...i'm not saying that Joana is a bad lecturer or she's boring, (she's not, OK!) but its just a little off when u gain knowledge by just sitting and listeining to someone speaking and telling story... anyway, just now, in the lrt, saw a middle-aged malay lady giving a sit to another unkown middle-aged indian lady... it is just so nice and sweet that one can share a seat with someone else from different background... yes, i know, i was a lil racist before this, but then, well, Malaysia is quite a special place to live in, compared to lots of country with other races living in it... we don't fight nor throw stones or even shoot each other down due to the colour of skin and background... well, Malaysians are friendly (most of them) and not as bad as what i actually thought they were... PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN ^_^
physical appearance is only an excuse

Thursday, October 16, 2008

snooring away

well, class today was rather.............sleepy its not that class was boring, but its ok la... i am the one who's sleepy... yesterday night went to catch the House Bunny, and well, i should say that the movie is not that bad...the bitchyness are just great but the story line is a lil boring and well, typical... anyway, i slept at 1 and woke up at 7, and now, i am sleepy...haha... believe it or not, for the freakingly first time in my life, SOH was talking to me nicely with that all-so-friendyly-smile that i've never seen from him... haha... then, in econs, avec and a few more heard something which is actually not what they assumed it is... *random* oh ya, had my first paper yesteday morning, math pure, its ok la.. at least i managed to do some (lots) question that i didnt know how to do and well, feel rather satisfied la... *wink* specials things done today : ~ate bittergourd first time in this month ~ate BIG APPLE donut for the very first time (just pure fats + sugar + oil + fats) ~bluetoothed some nice simple plan songs.. ~feeling sleepy in class =..=
smiling in the sleepy eyes

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

torture to torturing

guess what, tomorrow is the first day of exam, which is also the first day of torture *yippee* ~_~ and guess what again, some arguement in the office happened sort of because of my presence here...! damn it... i know, i shouldnt be here but well, i am already here, what u want me to do, *kapush* and spend the whole friging day in IOI mall?? i am broke... i just hate it when it comes to exam and those are the time when my other friends are enjoying and flying all around the world! ~_~ x2 i want my holiday... i want to fly around the world..
a man's meat is another man's delicacy

Monday, October 13, 2008

damn it!!!

damn it!!!!!! just found out that the office people are going to BANGKOK as well as HANOI!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM FREAKINGLY *AM TUI*... DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not being in the list is being abandoned

pushing it hard

well, has been a few days since i blogged... currently going through my TWO(2) days of study leave... *lame leave* and getting prepared for exam (hopefully i am) its just so sucky when u know exam is coming up real real real soon and you're just sitting there doing nothing much... i did quite a few past year questions but then, well, still don feel that it is enough, although i am lazy.. XD went for sushi king just now and guess what, there was about 7 of us, and we ate abt 60 plates.. haha.. i am turning fat... (RM 2 per plate) i took the picture but i am still a lil blur on the ways to upload picture here... still new.. haha... exam on wednesday = dooms day!
when there's a will there's a way
~i dont have any will~

Friday, October 10, 2008

more of uncertainties

i got so random lately that i have no idea what trend i am in.. haha... well, exam will be starting soon, and so far, its ok la... done a little of revision and so far i am still alive too.. haha... anyway, went for GP today and Joana was talking about parenting and stuff... saw some quotes that i like it very much.. I'd finger-paint more, and point the finger less ( which i hope i will to my friends) I would do less correcting and more connecting I'd take my eyes off my watch, and watch with my eyes I'd stop playing serious and seriously play I'd do more hugging and less tugging
taking advantage of myself for you

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

my real love

if you wanna cry, cry on my shoulders, if you're feeling sad and your heart gets colder, i will show you what real love can do. if the hero never comes to you, if you need someone when you're feeling blue, i will be there for you. i will stay by your side, and i will never hide.

fury but not furious

well, went for a special movie screening, FURY, yesterday evening in pavilion... and guess what, i saw DANIEL LEE...yeap, the one from Malaysian Idol... he was with a girl, wearing a black/brown jacket in pavillion... well, actually i didn't know that it was him, but he stared into my eyes and i was like OMG!!! ITS DANIEL... well, i am not a big fan of him and to be exact, not even a fan of his, but well, he's ok... haha... and he was looking at me.... O.O muahaha.... for you girls outhere that is a big fan of his, XD haha.... anyway, 2 days back, i went back to my hostel, and i saw someone left something on my door, and well, thanks for the lovely food... you don't have to do this... i know its you whom left it there, but please, you don have to... i feel bad when i know that you still do this... i am sorry... :(
being exempted is not being forgotten

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


guess what, my family members will be going to bangkok end of this month, and the best thing is I DON GET TO GO!!! damn it... stupid exam... my cousin will be getting married there with some thai lady and i really want to go and my dad disallow yucky... fine... and u know what, i was offered another trip by my company to Hanoi, and guess what, I DON GET TO GO AGAIN.... really idiotic exam la... only have 4 subjects, 6 papers, and the whole process of examination takes more than a month!!! damn it...
living on air

Monday, October 6, 2008

pushing the limit

i am tired and sick.... throat is dry and i feel as though i am dying soon... help me... anyway, went for my first Haagen Daaz (ignore the spelling) when i was back in Penang last weekend... we ordered rum raisin and tiramisu ice cream... i don taste anything special with it though... its just so much pure and sweeter than the usual ice cream that we have everyday BUT, the effing expensive...RM 20++.... its crazy... anyway, THANKS NELSON!!! then, went to have so heaviest supper that i've ever taken in mylife... so crazy... it was already 1 in the morning and i had satayS, siu maiS and chicken bishop (aka ass).....*eeeu* i put on lots of weight thanks to this trip back home... i made a frozen cheese cake, and mom made lots of traditional kuih... hehe.... love you mom.... anyway, i feel so awkward today... i hate monday.... :(
kicking stones

sweet sour

yes, i still hate the process of getting back to penang as well as coming back to kl... guess what, it took my freaking 11 hours to travel from penang to kl + a lil bit of makan-ing and visiting ipoh and a few other places la... but guess what, hello...ELEVEN HOURS!! i almost died in the car and no one noticed.... =.= and after that torturing 11 HOURS, i will be facing my damn freaking exam in 9 more days... OMG!!! damn torturing la... haihz... so much things to do, so lil time left... why do i have to go through all the crap in life??? anyway, about the sweet things that i went through in penang, it was ok.... well, went to batu ferringi, air itam market with grandma and mom *wink* and also went to some birthday party.... haha... anyway, thanks for fetching me back and bringing me around ya....(u know who u r) XD *heart u* anyway, after the break up that happened more than a year ago, and if we are still together now, it would have been 2 years, you asked me if i still blames you.... well, you really made me question myself... i don't think that i am mad at u or whatsoever la... i am only curious on why you wanted to break up with me... *hugs* ANYWAY, it was the past, and i am living my life now....and so do u... wish u all the best with your lover ya... glad that you are fine now.... AND AND AND i love everyone of you in penang....
living in me

Thursday, October 2, 2008

i am myself

stop questioning me on the same thing over, and over again, please! its so sucky and damn stressful when you just keep on asking me and then u will get the same reply from me... isn't that the same and there're no difference... i hate it!!! i know you guys care about me and my future, but i am as well worried... i don want to think about it as i am also scared.... please, hopefully u guys, would just kindly stop asking me.. i don want to keep on repeating myself over and over again... sorry... i love you guys...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

life money

being here is like being in the place where no one acan stop me from saying anything, no one would know my post but i care less... i love my life, i love myself... i am so broke for now, and hopefully the bank would have been finished processing my cheque and give me ma money... i need money, i want money...
life was never easy and it will never be