Saturday, November 29, 2008

congrats sis

just came back from sis's graduation ceremony... well, its her day today, after studying for all these years to be come a nurse.. but then, i am rather disappointed over what she said and done... its her big day, and maybe she expected something from her brother, her family... when i went to her after her ceremony was over, and she was with her friends... wanted to congratulate her, but then she scolded me for not buying her flowers and all that in front of all her friends.. i donno... its just that dissapointment i have.... you might expected more from me, but sorry... i am really having some financial crisis lately... i am just sorry... anyway, congrats sis for becoming a great nurse...
there's nothing i can do

Friday, November 28, 2008

left but remains

today seems to be a good day for an outing, a day out with friends and family...
just came back from grandpa's new house..
you've been gone for 21 days...
we still miss you very much, especially grandma...
there's just that pain in my heart whenever i see her crying...
not her, not mom, not anyone i know, not anyone in the world...
let there be tears of joy, and no tears of sorrow...
grandpa, hope that you're in a better place now..
a place where there'll be no pain, no loss, no disappointment...
what makes life fragile?

crazy fats

life is about sharing and not living all by yourself... just came back from dinner with ryan... we had steamboat + barbeque + dim sum... my God... it was so crazy and i vomitted twice and i am putting on so much weight that no one can imagine how fat i am now... haihz... =< i am fat!!!!
it has been 3 weeks since you're gone

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


mom is currently sitting beside me, going to read some stuff from some chinese book to me...
(i am a banana)
anyway, parents just argued just now...
great, right??
hate it when it happens...
its as though they got nothing else better to do...
i'll be going back to kl this saturday for work soon..
i'll miss penang for sure...
i'll miss my family...
life repeats

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

son or niece??

isn't it obvious that i am jealous?! hello... i am about to turn 18, and you haven't specially cooked any instant noodle or even any special meal other than the 3 basic meals of the day for me... and guess what, you cooked for my cousin?! its like HELLO!!! I AM YOUR SON/CHILDREN AND NOT THAT GIRL!!!! anyway, forget about it... my cousin sister came over and live with us for dono how long she want, and she is already getting on my nerves even though its her first 3 days of stay here... respect comes in 2 way, and when i respect you, i expect you to respect me in return... first of all, i am older than you are, so PLEASE FREAKINGLY SHOW SOME RESPECT!! when i tell you something i expect some proper response from you, and not showing your i-don-care expression to me... you'll regret it when i call you a bitch one day... trust me! i've been back in penang for days and guess what, i haven't went out with my friends yet... none... great ~.~


well, dreamt of grandpa again last night... we were at grandma's house, and somehow, the lift brought us up to the 8th floor, so we have to walked down the stairs back to the 3rd floor... then, grandpa told me, SORRY, GRANDPA IS TOO OLD D... i almost broke into tears when i heard that... grandpa, you're not old, you're still my grandpa no matter how old you are.... we still love you and we really do...
always missing you

Friday, November 21, 2008


well, did some silly and shameful stuff just now... was in the train, after exam, to work... at the Pasar Seni station, saw an old men, asking everyone, KELANA JAYA AR??? well, then since no body answered, so i tried to answer la (though i'm not that sure), by pointing to the opposite side... and guess what, my train was supposed to be the one to Kelana Jaya, and not the opposite one... i felt so bad... and even ppl in the train started staring at me... *shy* *@* haihz... sorry uncle... i'm really sorry... other than that, dreamt of grandpa again last night... i donno why, has been dreaming of him lately... didnt really dream about him at the first 7th day without him, but only exactly after that... dreamt that he woke up from death and then telling us that he's very thirsty or something like that... other than that, for the past few nights, has been dreaming of him of him leaving us as well... i just miss you... i wanted to tell mom about it but then i am afraid that it might just got her and grandma into some emo mode... we really miss you ah kong... you just left us in such a short time and so sudden... we're totally unprepared... i regretted not calling back and talked to you... i am sorry... Seems like it was yesterday When I saw your face You told me how proud you were But I walked away If only I knew What I know today I would hold you in my arms I would take the pain away Thank you for all you’ve done Forgive all your mistakes There’s nothing I wouldn’t do To hear your voice again Sometimes I wanna call you But I know you won’t be there I’m sorry for Blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself By hurting you Some days I feel broke inside But I won’t admit Sometimes I just wanna hide Cause it’s you I miss And it’s so hard to say goodbye When it comes to this Would you tell me I was wrong Would you help me understand Are you lookin’ down upon me Are you proud of who I am There’s nothing I wouldn’t do To have just one more chance To look into your eyes And see you looking back I’m sorry for Blaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself If I had just one more day I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you since you’ve been away It’s dangerous It’s so out of line To try and turn back time I’m sorry forBlaming you For everything I just couldn’t do And I’ve hurt myself By hurting you we really miss you...
never knew till you're gone

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


oh my GOD!!!! you slut!!! you asked someone to stroke your C*#k!!! eeeu....


Changy™ Bye Bye Moral! says: so ur 1990?
life was never easy and it will never be says: what makes u think i am not?
Changy™ Bye Bye Moral! says: nah u just look kinda young
guess what, this is just the sweetest thing i've ever heard today, other than I MISS YOU, of course... ahha... well, the rain somehow makes me a little moody now.. am sitting in the office, staring at the white pc, and supposed to be working, but.... ahhaa... they're all off... veron, christy, esther, fannie, CK, Sunny... all out of the country, and more or less, no one is going to look at me working... i love my life now (or maybe not?) anyway, who says that cursing is a bad thing?? cursing can be funny at times you know... so, *$#@
blogging my life

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


i am so darn furious now... i was asked to do one of the silliest thing i've ever done in my life, which is CALLING TO EVERYONE IN A TELEPHONE DIRECTORY =.= and guess what, i am freakingly hungry now, that it makes me ffffffffffffffffffffffffuriousssssssssssss..... anyway, grandpa, i still miss you... i've been having you in my dream for the past 3 nights... i don't know why... it is still somehow feels different when i think of penang... i used to have 2 grandpa and 2 grandma.. and now, the closest grandpa is gone, forever.. i still remember very well on how you looks like when i went back 2 saturdays ago... i miss you very much...
a song that will come to an end

Thursday, November 13, 2008

ah kong

ah kong, you will always be in our memory... we love you as always, and always will.. we miss you very much

Friday, November 7, 2008


falling out of time in order to get me back to on feet...
things just somehow feel like its out of order, and need lots of maintenance and repair...
the cost is high, and there is a price to pay for all of these...
but i am willing to..
because i want to...
cleansing takes time

Thursday, November 6, 2008


finally, done my economics just now... its a not-too-bad paper la.. however don really dare to judge and say how good i will score in it... in the mid-term, i thought that i did well, but instead, at the end of the day, when the paper comes back, i got a =.= instead haihz... the good thing for now is that i have two more papers to be taken, and then, yippee i will scream for this year... in the train just now, just randomly thought of something from some random movies... *i miss my family* @_@
the one you misses is the one you love

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

sweet cake

happy life, happy ending


just finished my 3rd day of exam... *whew* 3 more days to go till indepent for the year 2008... but in the process of going through the exam just now, almost killed myself twice thanks to myself... saw 'l' as 't' and 0.2 as 0.1 +.+ it was so crazy... thank God that i managed to see those silly mistakes and correct them in time...
close enough to get yourself killed

Monday, November 3, 2008

Young Enterprise

WTF man...
my school lost the YE competition??!!!
what the fuck man...
what are the people in my school doing??
" PCGHS’ RM5,444 profit margin was certainly good enough to beat St. Xavier’s Institution (SXI), Methodist Girls School and SMK Sacred Heart to second, third and fourth places respectively.
The best annual report achievement award went to SMK Dato’ Onn, followed by SMJK Chung Ling, SMJK Union and Penang Free School. For best product achievement, SMJK Phor Tay was the winner with SMK Convent Green Lane the first runner-up while SMK Batu Maung and SMK Datuk Haji Abdul Kadir took the third and fourth placing respectively.
At the YE sales fair in Queensbay Mall, SXI had the best overall stall while SMK Dato’ Onn was best in customer service. SMK Convent Green Lane was best in teamwork, SMJK Phor Tay best in promotions while SM Teknik Tunku Abdul Rahman Putra had the best decorated stall. "
what is wrong with the juniors??
how come lose??
and to PCGHS?!!!!
my God!!
SXI has been on the trophy for yearS...
and you guys just let that girl school beat all of you?!?!?!
Biz Edge was and IS a much better company than you guys!
Biz Edge Enterprise, 2007

HR Director, Biz Edge Enterprise


Pride year 2007


now i look like a vampire from the halloweem... my eyes are red due to my long hair... ~_~ anyway, my halloween turn out to be rather sucky.. just normal... was supposed to go to oblique with kenn and all, but was kinda have to give face to Connie (chihuahua) because its her last day around and have to go for her farewell in SHABU-SHABU and NEWAY... sorry Kenn for not going there although i said i would... i really wanted to go, but i couldnt make it... those people were forcing me (sort of) to go.. i am just sorry kenn... anyway, life was so called limitless, and endless, but lately i just feel as though life is coming to an end... good things are again, sort of leaving me, leaving my life... it feels hard to breath, sick to move... i am just falling apart, failing to keep me in one... mom and dad went to bangkok the other day, now still there, having lots of fun... and i think that my sis is now there joining the fun... i want bangkok... i want fun.. i want endless happy life...
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