Wednesday, July 29, 2009

sorry to you

I have no idea from where to start blogging and where to start to voice out how i feel and what i've been thinking for the past few days... I've been losing quite a number of great friends, and people whom i care and i love... i tend to neglect those who i love when they are around and i took them for granted..my late grandpa was one of them...when he was around, i was just there to say hi and didn't show my concern towards him... not till the day when i saw him lying there, liveless and motionless... only then that i found out that i've wasted my time, and disappointed him.. and then, lately when i've reunited with my good friend, someone in kl whom i care share my secret with and to hang out with, i took him for granted again.. he was there for me when i needed someone to talk to and someone to share my feelings with, but i failed to be there for him when he was in trouble and in doubt.. i found myself to be a great failure in becoming a filial son, a good family members, and definitely nowhere close in becoming a great friend to someone.. NLSW, i know that you've read my blog yesterday night...honestly, i have not regretted about blogging all those and criticizing you.. i've only regretted not letting you know and read it on the spot, but only yesterday, when i've really taken you as one my friend, and someone who has really got to know me for a long period....No one is perfect and definitely you are not one of the perfect ones..however, when i blogged and criticises you that day, i only looked at you from the negative point of view...i looked at your negative side and has already forgotten the good side of you... i apologize for being such a friend, and definitely, silly enough of not being honest to you when i blog about you and not telling you about it... i am sorry.. I am not a good friend and nowhere close in becoming one, but i promise myself that i will try my best to learn and to be a friend, the someone whom you would think of when you are in trouble and in need of someone to talk to and share your feelings with... you guys might not be able to read this as the hatred that i've caused has already gotten all over you, but i would sincerely apologise... I love you guys and definitely, appreciate all the things that you guys has done for me and the time you've spent with me...

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm Pu a good friend of NLSW. I'm not here to stops you from blogging or commenting people but I think there is a few things which u need to know. As his buddy for so long, I need to tell how I felt on the two things which u put it as his negative side. Firstly, u asked him to get a life, U dun even care whether he is gay or bi or what ever.. One question, Did u ever respect him as a person? Do you know the truth behind that moment that leads to all the miseries in him? Lucky enough I believe he sought for your help to talk that moment but end up got critisized and I discovered bout his problem. During Dec & Jan he got deeply pressured by his parents on sexuality issue, and chased by a girl.. he rejected.. Yes as his friend I know very well he is gay, but as his position today and social networks, U know how hard for him to face the world? How much he needed to pretend... Things said are just easy than things done. Secondly, since when NLSW asked sumone to stroke his C*#k? I think I was beside that moment when he told u on msn kiddingly that he got touched by another guy at Haagen Dazs. Fair enough, He might not be right but u may not be right as well. My advise to you is before u started to look straight into anybody's negative point, Please la do some research. Do not rely solely on what u hear from people. Thank you!

Anonymous 2 said...

When you want to critise someone, please think of yourself first. You are not perfect and none of us is. So, you are the one who should get a life! Maybe certain people did something annoyed you, but you shouldn't crtitised them! It's not only you who live in this world ....

Ign@tius said...

i do understand and strongly believe that i am not perfect and not even anywhere close to being a perfect guy..
I knew i was wrong in commenting and even to bring it up in my blog.. I am sorry for what I've said and posted as i was only commenting on NLSW from a single point of view... I am wrong in criticizing and commenting too much on his personal issue..

Anonymous said...

I'm Pu. There is no right or wrong in this matter. U got your rights to voice your comments as this is your blog. And I dun mean to offend you, my pure intention is just want you to understand. U heard people saying, One hand clap make no noise, but it does when both hands joined. I believe you do care for my friend that is why you commented about him. I believe NLSW still treats you as his buddy...