Monday, April 4, 2011

i need you

i am so loving it when my whole family just manage to sit down together at the living room having dinner without anyone arguing with someone else across the table... it has been such a long period since i've actually enjoyed this real fulfilled family time with both my parents and sister... when i was younger (5 years ago), my sis would be in college and her hostel most of the time while dad was usually the busy one dealing with business and socializing with his customers and friends... there would usually only be my mom and myself having dinner but deep down in my heart, i would really wish that someone 4 of us, as a family would just sit down together happily, laughing and eating enjoying our meals..
well, i guess i wouldnt get to enjoy this much anymore after this as i would be gone again to Kota Bahru for 5 months or so for my studies and then would have to leave my parents for my sis to take care on my behalf.. i actually always thought that i am a stronger will and minded person but can't believe that i actually really appreciate the presence of my family members in the dining room....

Thursday, March 31, 2011

working me

when i was much younger, i thought that working would be easy and not having to wear the same old plain white shirt and green pants with same old white shoes to school every weekdays would be fun and having colleagues to talk all day earning your own money would be a big thing in life... however as i look at myself in the mirror today, almost there doing what i've always wanted and entering my adulthood into the working life, i realised that what every other adults told me 5 years back was all true.. working is not as fun as i thought it is, and wearing the plain school uniform isn't such a bad thing as one don't have to worry and think of what to wear... no investment on different designer clothings and shoes is better than having a saving account, while not having to spend on expensive yet very unhealthy lunch meals instead as canteen food will always be available is like having a 12 months fixed deposit account...
kids out there (i think i am old enough and qualified to call you guys that), working is not as fun as what it seems... exams aren't the worst thing in life... not able to make ends meet is... enjoy your school day, skip classes with your friends as much as you want as long as your parents dont know...

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

give up not

few years ago, if i were to know that what i will be today, i would go crazy knowing that i will be able to get my dreams realised and making dreams come true... however, how much would one actually give to get what they really want in life?? i've always wanted to be a pilot knowing that nothing else would really complete me.. i put in effort and time obtaining resources to get into the cadet programme and work my way through the training till today... sad to say though, not everyone would put in as much effort to obtain what they really want in life... nothing comes knocking at your door so one will actually have to put in more effort.. failing is just another step in successing... never give up, keep moving forward.. have fun in life and know that there are still alot people out there that are still trying hard to even to live a day, so who are you to give up?

Friday, March 25, 2011

life of my own

It has been ages since I've taken an inter-state bus rides and it actually still feels pretty good. As of now, I'm on my way traveling up north to my sweet hometown in Penang from KL.

Throughout this journey, I've seen places that I used to go to and roads that I used to travel when I was still in my college 2 years back. Traveling by road using the express busses has been something I'm familiar with as it's pretty much convenient to travel although it's slightly longer than usual. The seats are comforter compared to the airlines and are reclineable with huge arm rest.

Anyway, I'm getting accustomed to moving from a place to another, not having my family members and parents with me all the time, I've learned to live independently financially and mentally. I'm not saying that I'm a filial son or otherwise but I just pretty much like having a life of my own without much of worries or restriction.

Flying will soon be a career of mine and I guess that people around me will have to get used to not having me around all the time especially during the celebrations etc.

I do miss my friends and family, but just maybe not to the extend of having to stay with them all the time 24/7. I appreciate them as much as they do for me and I do care for them as much but I like spreading my wings and going around places.

Monday, March 14, 2011

dreamy but real

Some people dream to be a doctor while some dare not to dream and just let things settle and bring them to be whoever they can be.

It's normal that people around us actually sets an expectation towards us and want us to do better and to improve but we shall not forget, who we actually are and what we want in life.

Like myself, I want to be a pilot at one point of my life, and maybe too in the marketing/ social media industry where I get to expand my network of friends and to gain further knowledge in life. You can say that these two dreams of mine are pretty much two different things that doesn't really come together in any sense but I reckon that why just be normal and live a boring life?

So now here I am, on my way realizing one of my dream of becoming a pilot thanks to AirAsia, while having all these amature media fun time using my blog! Why restrict yourself to only what other people is doing? Start of something new, keep it going and let it grow! Who said that day dreaming is bad? It's a beginning of something new I'd say!

So, get your bum out there, do things no one has ever done and be proud of yourself!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

flight and everything else



I see that i've gained a few new readers here lately although that the page hasn't been updated much lately...

anyway, i've got my CPL test confirmed on tomorrow (ground) and Thursday (flying) so things are pretty much looking good now... i've been delayed several times which made up the several extra months here due to weather, aircraft instructor and yada yada and so, now i'm just pretty much hoping for the weather here to improve and the fluffy nice cloud to dissipate for the next few days in order for me to get more flyings and test out of the way...

On the other hand, im not sure if anyone noticed what is going on nowadays with our mother nature, natural disasters has just been striking and every now and then, there would be an earthquake, flash floodings, tropical cyclones and crazy wacky weather and person running around ruining my everyone else's day... As of earlier this afternoon, the city of Christchurch in New Zealand was hit by several earthquakes measuring at about 6.3 richerscale (or something i dont know)... there are definitely fatalities and heaps of casualties out there and my heart really goes out to the victims and their family members...

As on now, i can do nothing much than to pray for the victims and of course myself so that i can pass my CPL test and get things done here...

p/s. if you're free, i don't mind you wishing me good luck for my test... 

Thursday, February 17, 2011

the journey



i was told by someone that its cool that i'm a soon to be a pilot now and he wish that he can be like who i am... if i were who i was 2 years ago, i would really think that its something very glamourous and something to be proud of in my life... but now, looking at myself, i don't actually think that its really that much of a big thing...

i'm not saying that i'm not appreciating what i am having and doing now, but what i mean is that i am proud of who i was and how i get here... personally, i think the process of becoming a pilot, the training, and the person who was involved all along and helped me through is the bigger picture...

i still do remember all the people who has helped me when i wanted guidance, support and confidence... I still remember who actually fetched me to all the interviews and who was it that told me to calm down and gave me faith for the confident... All these little things and people has actually give me the faith to keep going and was around for me when i felt like giving up... i may have dissapointed some of you, but i just really want to say that i really do care about you and i wont be who i am without you... mistakes has been done and i can't turn back to the past, but i will always remember how things were and i am still as grateful!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

anger makes nothing



sometimes i really find it hard to keep my anger up unless it gets really really bad... some call me emotional or crazy but i just don't really like to keep whatever i feel to myself.. my world is full of strangers and passerby so i don't want to miss anything and be fake to anything or anyone at anytime...

you see, recently a friend of mine who was previously close to me got me pretty mad by saying certain stuff that i thought was unfair and was not actually true... i try to kept the anger to myself and to just let things pass but till these few days, i started to realise that life would have been better if i were to tell him or anyone about it... if you are to read this anyway, just forget about it alright... no matter what is it, i really do appreciate the friendship we used to share and that was the most valuable thing that we have and share..

anyway, as i woke pretty much early today, i've decided to make the best of it.. life is more than just what we think it is... step out of your house, look up to the sky and make the best out of it...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

who loves you?

(Happy Chinese New Year)

here again comes the big day for dating couples (or even married ones) of the year where the male counterpart would have to think of a way to celebrate and to show affection to his partner... Valentine's day is just less than a week away, and honestly, i have no idea what i should be doing to celebrate this big-but-not-so-much-of-a-thing day this year and i have better got to think fast if i want it to happen...

when i was much younger, i would spend days and days to think of what i should do for my partner (at then), where we should eat, what can we do, and how many bouquet of flowers and holes to burn in my thin wallet just to tell her how much i actually love and care about her... i've personally tried making flowers, pendant, cards, buying teddy bears and chocolate, etc. to just be part of the society and to join in the celebration...

however, as i grew older and moved on from a relationship to another, i just realised that why bother making it such a big fuss to tell that someone that you really care... love is just a matter of feeling and support which should never be equate to items or confectioneries... so, how are you going to celebrate the 14th of Feb 2011??

i think that i'd be dead if my someone is to read this post

Monday, January 10, 2011

think it over



as i was in the car listening to the radio this morning, the question of 'How long should a cooling period be after a break up before starting a new relationship comes in' had me thinking for quite a bit...

according to the DJ, a good way of getting the math around it is basically 1/2 of the period of you being attached to your partner(currently ex)... i dont know but i kinda find it a bit not right in that sense but i reckon that at or about 2 months would be a great period to get things settled, and back to the real world and face the future...

you see, i had this agreement with my ex that if any of us would request for a break-up or to end the relationship, we would give each other at least 3 months to think and to see if the decision made for a break up would be wise... i personally think that it would be a great way to ask yourself how much your actually love that someone and to decide if the decision made for a break up was a good one...

what do you think??

p/s. im not a love guru or even close to one, and i've broken up with my lover several months ago, but i think that the 3 months thing was a good cool down/ thinking period..