Tuesday, February 22, 2011

flight and everything else



I see that i've gained a few new readers here lately although that the page hasn't been updated much lately...

anyway, i've got my CPL test confirmed on tomorrow (ground) and Thursday (flying) so things are pretty much looking good now... i've been delayed several times which made up the several extra months here due to weather, aircraft instructor and yada yada and so, now i'm just pretty much hoping for the weather here to improve and the fluffy nice cloud to dissipate for the next few days in order for me to get more flyings and test out of the way...

On the other hand, im not sure if anyone noticed what is going on nowadays with our mother nature, natural disasters has just been striking and every now and then, there would be an earthquake, flash floodings, tropical cyclones and crazy wacky weather and person running around ruining my everyone else's day... As of earlier this afternoon, the city of Christchurch in New Zealand was hit by several earthquakes measuring at about 6.3 richerscale (or something i dont know)... there are definitely fatalities and heaps of casualties out there and my heart really goes out to the victims and their family members...

As on now, i can do nothing much than to pray for the victims and of course myself so that i can pass my CPL test and get things done here...

p/s. if you're free, i don't mind you wishing me good luck for my test... 

Thursday, February 17, 2011

the journey



i was told by someone that its cool that i'm a soon to be a pilot now and he wish that he can be like who i am... if i were who i was 2 years ago, i would really think that its something very glamourous and something to be proud of in my life... but now, looking at myself, i don't actually think that its really that much of a big thing...

i'm not saying that i'm not appreciating what i am having and doing now, but what i mean is that i am proud of who i was and how i get here... personally, i think the process of becoming a pilot, the training, and the person who was involved all along and helped me through is the bigger picture...

i still do remember all the people who has helped me when i wanted guidance, support and confidence... I still remember who actually fetched me to all the interviews and who was it that told me to calm down and gave me faith for the confident... All these little things and people has actually give me the faith to keep going and was around for me when i felt like giving up... i may have dissapointed some of you, but i just really want to say that i really do care about you and i wont be who i am without you... mistakes has been done and i can't turn back to the past, but i will always remember how things were and i am still as grateful!

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

anger makes nothing



sometimes i really find it hard to keep my anger up unless it gets really really bad... some call me emotional or crazy but i just don't really like to keep whatever i feel to myself.. my world is full of strangers and passerby so i don't want to miss anything and be fake to anything or anyone at anytime...

you see, recently a friend of mine who was previously close to me got me pretty mad by saying certain stuff that i thought was unfair and was not actually true... i try to kept the anger to myself and to just let things pass but till these few days, i started to realise that life would have been better if i were to tell him or anyone about it... if you are to read this anyway, just forget about it alright... no matter what is it, i really do appreciate the friendship we used to share and that was the most valuable thing that we have and share..

anyway, as i woke pretty much early today, i've decided to make the best of it.. life is more than just what we think it is... step out of your house, look up to the sky and make the best out of it...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

who loves you?

(Happy Chinese New Year)

here again comes the big day for dating couples (or even married ones) of the year where the male counterpart would have to think of a way to celebrate and to show affection to his partner... Valentine's day is just less than a week away, and honestly, i have no idea what i should be doing to celebrate this big-but-not-so-much-of-a-thing day this year and i have better got to think fast if i want it to happen...

when i was much younger, i would spend days and days to think of what i should do for my partner (at then), where we should eat, what can we do, and how many bouquet of flowers and holes to burn in my thin wallet just to tell her how much i actually love and care about her... i've personally tried making flowers, pendant, cards, buying teddy bears and chocolate, etc. to just be part of the society and to join in the celebration...

however, as i grew older and moved on from a relationship to another, i just realised that why bother making it such a big fuss to tell that someone that you really care... love is just a matter of feeling and support which should never be equate to items or confectioneries... so, how are you going to celebrate the 14th of Feb 2011??

i think that i'd be dead if my someone is to read this post